Thursday, November 15, 2012


What is a Vow? We aren't talking wedding vows, but what is a vow, do you know?

I am using the "Green Book- Wellspring School of Ministry, the Wellspring model. How to Minister Workbook. By Art and Patti Mathias

Have you ever said: "I will never let a man (or woman) ever hurt me again?"
Or, "I will never put myself in that position again." "I can't trust anybody." "Nobody can do it right but me." "I will never be like my mother (or father)." "I will never be like that." "I will never share what I really feel, it is not safe."

Many men say this ab out their mothers, and then it transfers to their wives. "Men (women) never do it right." "Don't share", etc.

Proverbs teaches us that as we think in our hearts, so we become (Proverbs 23:7a). If we make these "vows", or statements, they are waiting to be fulfilled, and Satan will make sure they happen. Many of these vows were said as children, yet they affect our lives as adults. If you have ever made such statements, it is now time to go before the LORD, and repent and break the power of the curse that was placed on your life.

Suggested Prayer

Heavenly Father, in the name of the LORD Jesus Christ, and as an act of my free will. I confess, repent, and renounce the vow of (specific words) in my life and in all my generations, clean back to Adam.

I ask you, LORD, to forgive me and all my family members and all my past and future generations for involvement in this vow. I release myself from the curse of this vow.

In the name of the LORD Jesus Christ, and by the power of His blood, I cancel all of Satan's power and authority over me because of the vow of (specific words).

Holy Spirit, heal my heart and cleanse me from the effects of this vow. Please speak your words of truth to me.

The following is a list of typical vows: (condensed)
  • I don't matter
  • I'm not good enough
  • What the use in trying? I'll never be good enough.
  • I am an outcast.
  • It's too complicated.
  • I can't do it.
  • I'll just suck it up and go on.
  • I'll just pretend it doesn't hurt and go on.
  • Nobody will believe me.
  • No one will hear my heart, or listen to me, or validate me, or acknowledge me.
  • Emotions don't matter.
  • It's my fault.
  • I'm worthless.
  • I'd better be perfect.
  • Everyone else gets what he or she wants. I never get what I want. When is it going to be my turn.
  • I'm defective.
  • I don't have time for emotions.
  • I'm a victim.
  • I am unclean.
  • Men have to be tough, or strong.
  • You can't teach an old dog new tricks.
  • I'll always find a way out; I will survive.
  • I have to be good.
  • I have bad blood.
  • I'm going to carry my cross and the thorn in my flesh.
  • I'm depressed.
  • It's so hard.
  • What's wrong with me, I just can't get my life together.
This list is so much longer, but I hope you get the point. When we speak words over ourselves, they may come to fruition.

When we give a foothold to the devil, he takes advantage of us because we have allowed it.

Steve and I have been working though this and have found that our bodies are being healed as we let go.

There is so much more we will talk/teach about another day. Today, I would love it if you asked the Holy Spirit to show you and tell you where you have made those vows. Sometimes it takes just a quiet moment to bring up something that caused a hurt.

Let me share with you what happened one night. Steve and I are talking in bed, this is very usual for us.
The Holy Spirit reminded me of running hard. I looked at their were two girls behind me. Those two girls spent about 3 years tormenting me, chasing me home and if I stopped they beat me up! One day, a knock on the door and it was one of the girls who told my mom that I said she could use my roller skates. I didn't. I was beat up again. It wasn't until we moved out to our country home that it all ended. I forgave this girl and the other one and forgave myself for holding on to all that yuk.
I thought I had let it go, but I remembered how scared I was and that's what brought it forward.
There are many more for another time.

For today, work on shining the light into the dark places. Next time we will cover a few new things. Our hope is you grow and let go and shine that light into the dark places so you can shine your light before men and you radiate with His Love all over you. ZERO Debts!


Oh the new you is waiting to break through!

We have basically locked ourselves up to hear the voice of God, the Holy Spirit to learn the things that are not of God and break the things and the generational curses that have taken our sight of walking with God fully. We haven't talked on the phone much to anyone, we haven't gone really anywhere except we have gone to the Revival, this has been incredible as we have learned how to pray off the yuck and become cleaner before the Almighty God, the Holy Spirit has spoken in us along with being healed.

Remember when Adam and Eve were in the garden? When the snake tempted Eve and Adam with the apple. Everyone blamed Eve, but Adam is the seed that carries forth through all generations, so the blame should have been on Adam for breaking the covenant with God and then hiding because they were naked. They didn't know they were naked before the eaten apple, but after.

We started a new Bible class this January, it's from Wellspring Prayer Ministry in Alaska. It's called Biblical Foundations of Freedom. It is learning how to destroy Satan's lies with God's truths. It has another component with it called In His Own Image.

I Found Freedom book is about God's nature and satan's lies. God's nature is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, kindness, faithfulness, and self control. These are found in Galatians 5:22.
Satan is the opposite of these fruits, his are rotten fruit with lots of flies around the fruits of hatred, envy, jealousy, unforgiveness, resentment, anger, murder, violence, rejection, fear, self-hatred, self-murder, bitterness, fornication, adultery, and the like.

When we walk closely with God, our fruits are good and are shared to grow others, but when we don't walk with God, those fruits are rotten and can be shared but they stunt others growth.

BTW - God (Jehovah) is not Allah! God had a son to save us from our sin, Allah did not have a son to save us. God speaks life and according to the other- it is spreading hate. God gave the Jewish people their land back after so much time, and Satan wants to push the Jewish people into the sea.

"We have been given freewill and in that we are sovereign in our choices. We are told to choose each day whom we will serve. Whomever we choose to serve, we become servant to him. The evidence of whom we have chosen to serve is seen in our speech, because it is what come out of the heart of man that defiles him. Our fruits are either of God, our Creator, or of the enemy, Satan.

Matthew 15:18 (New King James Version)
18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and they defile a man.

James 1:7-8 (New King James Version)

7 For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

"In this life, the testing we go through is from the decisions we have made. When we choose to obey God and to make quality decisions that honor or agree with God, we receive His blessings. If we choose to serve God, we also choose to allow the Holy Spirit to manifest though us, and we show those fruits of the Spirit. When we do this, we have peace that passes all understanding.
"If we choose to serve satan, the consequences is that his evil spirits, which represent his nature, will manifest through us. God NEVER causes evil; it is our choice. If we choose to disobey God and follow satan, we receive satan's blessings. In our disobedience, God turns us over to our own devices, and allows us to go on our own way. This is always of Satan, the devil, whom God calls "the enemy". As a result we lose our peace and joy."

Exerpt taken from page 3 of Biblical Foundations of Freedom by Art Mathias.

There are many tactics that Satan uses and we have allowed to come into our life. We may have opened doors and not really even known it. The key is to find those open doors and find those hiding spirits and shine God's light on them!
Here are some of those creepy spirits that sneak in and find a foothold and you won't even know it, they come in and hide and come out in the least expected times!
Accusing spirits are ones that comes in ever so sneaky, it comes to steal, kill, and destroy in whatever capacity it can. "Accusing spirits can operate in our life when we don't know what the real Spirit looks like. Accusing spirits build on our ignorance of who we are in Christ. They tempt us to misunderstand who other people really are. They confuse our thinking about God's true nature. Accusing spirits' goals are to bring us down, to bring others down, and to bring God down. They seek to separate us from God, others and ourselves. Satan uses an old military tactic of divide and conquer."

Accusing spirits accuse others, judge others, accuse God and accuse ourselves.
Here is a small list of these spirits...
  1. Refusing fellowship with a person who has changed.
  2. Holding people to their past behaviors
  3. Keeping a record of wrongs
  4. Bigotry
  5. Competion, not feeling whole unless we win
  6. Mistrust
  7. Heaviness
  8. Gossip and innuendo
  9. Being easily offended. Easily offending others
  10. Self-exaltation
  11. Envy
  12. Jealousing
  13. Suicide
  14. Not walking in or accepting forgiveness
  15. Anger
  16. Bitterness
  17. Depression
  18. Fear
  19. Hate
  20. Perfectionism
  21. Worry
  22. Vanity
  23. Blaming others for problems
This list is much longer.

But I want to share this prayer with you. You can use this as well. I will go through more.

It is the Wellspring prayer

Part 1- Forgiving or Repenting
In obedience we choose to forgive or repent. Matt. 6:14-15, James 4:7, 1 John 1:9

Part 2- Canceling Satan's Authority
In the name of Jesus and by the power of His blood, I cancel Satan's power and authority over me in this issue of ________________________. Eph. 4:27, James 4:7

Part 3 - Asking for Healing
We ask to be healed of a broken heart or a broken body - free from shame, anger, guild, rejection, bitterness, fear. We seek the renewing of our mind or the purging of our conscience. Ps. 103:3, Romans 12:1-2, Luke 4L18-19, Heb. 9:14

Part 4- Listening or Talking with God
Aks the Holy Spirit to tell you His Truth about the specific situation you are praying about. The Holy Spirit talks to us in a quiet voice, dreams, visions, impressions, or just takes the pain and leaves His peace. John 14:26

Forgiveness prayer:
Heavenly Father, I purpose and choose to forgive...(the person for what they did). I release them and cancel their debt to me. In the name of Jesus I cancel all of Satan's authority over me in this memory because it is forgiven. Holy Spirit, heal my heart and tell me your truth about this situation. Listen...

Repentance Prayer:
Heavenly Father, forgive me for... (specific sin). I purpose and choose to forgive myself. In the name of Jesus I cancel all of Satan's authority over me in this sin- I am forgiven. Holy Spirit, heal my heart and tell me Your Truth about this situation. Listen...

This is taken from Wellspring prayer ministry, by Art Mathias. you can go here and take a peek at his ministry.

Last night, I had a major Holy Spirit moment.

I have set myself up for years and never knew it. It was my own doing, not a generational doing. I have put myself into a reward system because I had failed in school as a child. I had a learning disability that wasn't discovered until 10th grade. I felt like such a failure most of my life. The report cards would come home and they would be all f's. Failed again and again and again. I tried my hardest, except in 9th grade when I slept through math everyday. It was hard for me, the teacher was not nice and didn't care either.

I would try, honestly, but I never got it.

I figured out that the reward system came after I had two children and became a single parent. If I did the dishes, cleaned the house, had food in the frig and the cupboards, I could go out dancing. That reward system has followed me through these years. That reward system, I got through college with it, but it has also put it's hooks into my marriage and not in a good way.

If I do this, I deserve this. I remembered when I would go shopping and spending on the credit card because I was rewarding myself for working so hard. It was in the wrong context that I did this and I had to pay that card off way too many times and I have since broken that craziness of spending on the credit card unless it is warrented.

So, after that wonderful discovery (of reward systems), I have prayed this prayer, released myself from the reward system and I can't wait to see what happens with it! I know there is a freedom that is awaiting me, sounds like a reward doesn't it!? It is a good reward though. We can have rewards, don't get me wrong, but mine was compulsive and set up for failure everytime! It was an unhealthy reward system.

I have a lot of work to do on myself and so does Steve. So, we are in this journey to listen to the Lord, a lot to discover and a lot to let go. I have asked the Holy Spirit to go into the dark places and shine the light into those and tell me the truth. But as we do this, we know that we need to keep ourselves in the place of holiness and walk with the Word of God.
When we sin or allow sin in, we allow those spirits an avenue to come in and take place.
God has healed us of so much in the past weeks and it has been incredible to testify to the Power of His Word. He comes to give us new life and life abundantly. He gives us peace that passes all understanding.

As I put into writing this, it makes me wonder will I terk anyone off? I am not here to do that, just simply share with you.

This is what we are learning and want the world to know it as well from and The Wellspring Ministry Book

The Religious Spirit

Ephesians 4:27 says, "Neither give place to the devil." The word "place" means a right to us or a room in us. Paul said in Romans 7:17, "Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me." It is our responsibility not to give place to the devil. But I want to carefully point out that we are talking about the evil spirits and the nature of Satan, no people. We as people choose to sin, we choose to allow Satan to act out his nature through us but we are not evil. Satan is evil. As humans we were created in the image of God, not Satan.

Character of the Religious Spirit

It wants to hold people in one place, tied to traditions of men. It wants to tie us to the rules and traditions of a church or religious practice. It wants us to hold on to "something" rather than trusting and holding on to God.

We can become very comfortable with the traditions of men. We can feel good in doing a certain ritual. The things that we are "used to" and have "always known" and have "always done" can provide a false security. Our trust is to be in our LORD and Savior Jesus Christ and not in how we have always done it.

In Matthew 17, Peter saw Jesus talking to Moses and Elias and than wanted to build three tabernacles in their honor. As men we want to build things instead of seeking the deep spiritual truths that were being revealed and enjoy the relationship with God.

The spirit wants us to be afreaid of what is new or different from our experience or worldview. Everyone is affected by this spirit in some way regardless of where we are on the religious spectrum. Every denomination and every church develops its own traditions and ways of doing things. Every church in doing this runs the risk of traditions ahead of God. This is called idolatry.

The religious spirit desires to make our relationship with God one of obligation and duty instead of passion. Religion can be used to control. If we do what we are told to do and go through the external motions of the church then we will be okay. The outward appearance become all that matter, not what is on the inside. Sometimes we like being told what do do because there is a level of safety and security. We pray because we are told that we are suppose to pray. We go to meetings because we are suppose to go to meetings. We feel like we are right with God because we have done what was required.

The religious spirit focuses on the letter of the law. When we become focused on the letter of the law - love, unity, peace, kindness and charity disappear. All that matter is filling the block and completing the requirement. The joy in a person's healing, miracle or blessing is gone. Instead we focus on "did they violate scripture?" "God doesn't work that way." "This can't be of God, He didn't do it for me." "I have never experienced it so it cannot be of God." The letter of the law kills, but the spirit brings life (2 Corinthians 3:6)

Vows are as such:

I don't matter
I'm not good enough
What's the use in trying? I'll never be good enough.
I'm an outcast
It's too complicated.
I just can't do it
I'll just suck it up and go on.
No one will heart my hear, or listen to me, or validate me, or acknowledge me.
Emotions don't matter.
It's my fault.
I'll just pretend it doesn't hurt and go on.
Everyone else gets what he or she wants. I never get what I want.  When is it going to be my turn?
I'm just a doormat. 
I'm depressed.
Time heals all wounds.
Keep peace at any price.
Be strong, good, right, and perfect, and make us proud of you.  Don't be selfish.
I've always done this, or I have always been like them.
I can't change.
You always hurt the ones you love.
I'm not going to be like my (mother/father).
I'm going to have to carry my cross and the thorn in my flesh.
It's just not for me.
Men don't cry.
Men don't hug.
Men have to be tough.
Men have to be strong.
So many more.  When you say things or think things negative about yourself, these are vows.

Suggested Prayer:

Heavenly Father, in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, and as an act of my free will, I confess, repent, and renounce the vow of (specific words) in my life and in all my generations, clear back to Adam.

I ask you, LORD, to forgive me and all my family members and all my past and future generations for involvement in this vow.  I release myself from the curse of this vow.

In the name of the LORD Jesus Christ, and by the power of His blood, I cancel all of Satan's power and authority over me because of the vow of (specific words).

Holy Spirit, heal my heart and cleanse me from the effects of this vow.  Please speak your words of truth to me.  (Stop and listen for the Lord to speak).

My prayer is that you can allow the Lord to heal you.

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